Monday, June 30, 2014

Family Pictures 2014

This is the last time we will all be together for two whole years.  We hoped little Hinjee would come before her oldest brother left for his mission and luckily she just barely made it.  We decided to do family pictures in our backyard with our new camera.  I love how they turned out.

Sunday, June 29, 2014

She's here at last!

Eleven days past her due date, baby Hinjee has finally graced us with her presence.  Her nickname comes from Thor who had all sorts of things he wanted to call the baby, but our favorite was Hinjee Spinjee.  I have no idea where he came up with it, but so she will be called, in this forum anyway.

I was really hoping not to have to be induced with her.  I figured since Thor came on his own any other babies that followed would follow suit.  At my last appointment however after her due date came and went I was disheartened as I found out I was still only dilated to a 2.  So I scheduled my induction for Friday June 20th.  The hospital called me the night before to tell me that they were very busy and might not get me in until late afternoon.  UGH!  But the next morning they called at 8:30 and informed me that I could head on over.

We arrived at the hospital at 9:30 am.  I was so excited to finally be having this baby, but nervous at the same time.  I'm not a huge fan of pain.  We started the Pitocin around 11 or 11:30 and then we waited.  The contractions started almost immediately, they were pretty mild.  After a few hours the midwife on call came to check me progress at all.  They kept increasing my Pitocin and said they would be back to break my water around 4pm.  Well a few minutes before 4:00 my water decided to break on its own.  It was then that things started to get really intense.  I lasted 45 minutes of excruciating contractions.  At about 4:45 my nurse came in and I asked her to check me.  To my dismay I was only dilated to a 4.  At that point I demanded an epidural I could take no more.  She called for the anesthesiologist and told me it would be about 15 minutes before he would get there.  When he came into the room, I don't know what it was but, right off the bat I didn't like him.  Iron Man told me later that he seemed really disorganized and like he didn't know what he was doing.  "Um....nurse....did you see where I put that syringe."  He gave me a local anesthetic and then tried to place the catheter. He couldn't do it.  He tried at least four different times and was unable to get it in.  At that point I really felt like she was coming and I needed to push.  My nurse told the anesthesiologist that she needed to check me.  He kept trying to get the epidural in.  Luckily my nurse was persistent and got him to let me lie down.  As soon as I did, they discovered I was complete and called in the squad.  After about 10 minutes (maybe less) of pushing, little Hinjee was born.  Another great delivery!  I feel so blessed that he didn't get the epidural placed. The key was sitting upright.  I think if I would have done it to begin with she would have been born a lot sooner.

Here is our beautiful girl.  Born June 20th at 17:17 pm.  7 pounds 19 inches.  Welcome little one!

Friday, June 13, 2014

4 Days Overdue!

Oh how I wish I were referring to library books! 

My EDD (estimated due date) with Hinjee Spinjee (as Thor so fondly calls her) was Monday June 9th.  I was almost certain she was going to come early.  Sparkle my first was 9 days late, but since she was my first child I pretty much expected she would arrive late.  With Thor, I woke up on the morning of July 19th, his EDD, and started having contractions about 4 minutes apart.  I conveniently had an appointment that day with the midwives and upon examination I was found to be dilated to a 6 and 90% effaced.  I checked into the hospital just after 11 am and when fully dilated pushed for 10 minutes (an excruciating 10 minutes mind you) and he was born at 1:13 pm, no epidural.  It was the most amazing delivery!  So I figured the next one would have to be at least that quick and easy, if not more so.  So I had it all planned out in my head.  She would come either on her due date or a few days before and it would be a breeze.  The day before her due date I was having contractions and everything seemed like it was going according to plan.  Now here I sit, four days after her well thought out and planned arrival date, feeling depressed, worried, and wondering what is wrong with me that I can't deliver this baby on time!

I know these feelings are completely irrational, but I have them and right now it is hard coping with my emotions.   Reading this I feel kind of silly writing about such a trivial thing.  Especially when I know there are so many who have it much worse than I. I should feel nothing but gratitude for my healthy pregnancy and baby soon to be arriving.  I worry though. She was in a posterior position at my last appointment which means she's head down but facing the wrong direction, which complicates matters and can make for a longer pregnancy, and a longer and more difficult labor and delivery.  I have been trying different yoga positions to encourage her to switch to a anterior position, but I can't tell if it's working and now it seems like she is transverse.  I get so frustrated not knowing what is happening in there. I just feel large, miserable, tired and powerless to do anything about this situation.

I am moody and impatient with Sparkle and Thor, who seem to be extra cranky and demanding.  I feel like such a mean mom sometimes.  NO we are NOT going to continuously snack all day, YES you do have to get dressed, and NO staying at home by your two-year-old self is not an option so you can either walk to the car or I WILL carry you kicking and screaming as the case may be.  My flower beds and yard are getting overgrown with weeds, there is so much to do but I don't feel like doing any of it.  I feel like I am on the verge of a major meltdown!  Yet at the same time I feel guilty for feeling this way when I have so much to be grateful for and I  realize how small my problems are compared with the much greater difficulties that others are facing.  I think that Viktor Frankl said it best in Man's Search for Meaning when he explained

           "...a man's suffering is similar to the behavior of gas.  If a certain quantity of gas is pumped
                into an empty chamber, it will fill the chamber completely and evenly, no matter how big
                 the chamber.  Thus suffering completely fills the human soul and conscious mind, no
                 matter whether the suffering is great or little.  Therefore the 'size' of human suffering is
                 absolutely relative." 

This coming from one who had lived through all the horrors of being in concentration camps!  He also comments further that " it also follows that a very trifling thing can cause the greatest of joys"

I should really read that book again.  I need to remember how to find joy in the "trifling" things. Also that "Emotion, which is suffering, ceases to be suffering as soon as we form a clear and precise  picture of it"  What is the purpose of it (whatever you are suffering)?  When you can answer that question,  you can succeed in rising above it.  No matter how large or miserable or tired I may feel I can still choose my own attitude and how I am going to handle it.  I decide what becomes of me mentally and spiritually. How wonderful, the gift of agency!

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Revolutionary Kickstarter project: Liquid level sensor!

Iron Man has a new project on Kickstarter.  I just want to give it a plug here.  The AquaPlumb  is a liquid level sensor that can have so many applications and can be used with many different types of liquids.  Whether you want remote monitoring and replenishing of livestock water tanks, control of aquaponic systems or aquariums, monitoring of flood alarms or even to create an electronic toilet, it's uses are many and varied.  Check it out.

Thanks for looking!